a new chapter of my life

I am loving jazz right now. The first time I appreciated jazz was when I heard hourglass, then I realized that it was so great and fascinating when we watched a musical recital by some students of the conservatory of music last Thursday. Speaking of last Thursday, I was really, uber, oh so sobra had fun. Despite the not-so-likable-situation I was in. Don’t want to talk about it anymore. Anyway, I heard a jazzy remake of tattooed on my mind. I liked it! A lot.. and this inspired me to write and update my blog. jazz makes me feel relaxed. And it makes me feel good about everything. But it also reminded me of a very dear friend. I just wish I could talk to her. But I can’t. I want to, but circumstances seem to stop me from doing so. I just miss her badly. Knowing that I’ve been close to her and that I know that she really was someone that I could call a friend.. It’s sad that now, things seem to be a lot different. Note to self: Ria, things, people change. IT is the only thing that is constant in this world. You just have to accept the fact that sometimes, you can’t fix things on your own. you can’t dictate on what you want people to feel, to see, to believe. It is up to them, if they trust you enough. And if they have the slightest confidence in what you have to say or do.You have to let them be on their own. You cannot please everybody. You just have to let fate take its course. Whether you like it or not, you have to deal with it. Have to deal with it?! Hmm.. Yeah, the world wouldn’t stop from rotating if someone has this huge problem.. like losing a friend. Ugh.. Or when you know that tomorrow, your whole class would be in big BIG trouble because you left your professor’s class and didn’t wait for her for 20 mins when you know that it should only be 15 mins. Grace period and everything.. Or you need to have the requirements you can’t produce in a day, or flunk a subject even if you know that u tried your best to get good grades, or get addicted to some kind of vice, etc. The world has a lot to offer, good/bad things. I am not complaining. I know that the things that we have to go through would be the things that we would remember. Plus, I don’t have time to agonize on things. Suffering is on how we take it. We suffer our own consequences, and we have to accept the fact that we are the only ones responsible for our lives. We are the ones to choose whether we would be happy or not. Good thing I have this outlook in life, I wouldn’t be able to go through each day with out this kind of attitude. And of course, without God and the special people in my life.