a new chapter of my life

i am really tired of thinking and reviewing.. Lord, help me. i don't know what i feel. di ko alm kung maiinis ba ko or matutuwa. actually, masaya na ko eh. kuntento.. i am happy on what i have.. pero still, sympre sino ba namn ang tao na may hangganan ang gusto. i should be really nervous 'coz my botany and math grades aren't that good.. may possibility pang maulit ko ung subject na un. *Lord wag naman po sana..* Pero i'm happy 'coz of the people around me, because i'm here.. because that's my problem.. and that's not really big. i won't compare it to anyone's problem, but it isn't that bad. i have to got through this to be able to surpass whatever's going to be brought in the future. *tama yan ria.. be optimistic.. affirming one's self is good haha... baliw na ata tlga ko. oh well.. this is life. and we all have to live life.. with failures and triumphs.. with grief and sadness..

thanks na lng tlga to my friends.. you make me feel.. complete!

sem break's gonna be over soon.. haven't done anything productive. hmm.. but i'm really happy i was able to spend time with some of my friends. i have this weird thought or a question that's bugging my mind. would my friends.. or the people i thought who are my friends visit me when i'm already dead? would they go to my wake?.. would they even care to stop what they're doing and think of the things we did together and say that i am someone that is worth visiting (when already dead). haha.. funny, yet.. i dunno. but if i'm going to be asked about this or be told that someone i know and is close to me have died,.. i would definitely..definitely say that i won't be able to talk to anyone for i dunno how many hours. people are so important to me, even those who i rarely talk to.. for me, simple things are really appreciated and that's why if someone has done me a small favor or made me laugh or just said hi sincerely.. i consider her as someone that once touched my life in a special way. mababaw a kung mababaw.. my pagiging mababaw is the reason why people like me and hate me at the same time. i'm easy to please.. but i get to think shallow at times too. and sensitive.. ambabaw ko nga naman. small things make me happy, and small reasons make me sad or angry.