fudge..ano bang dapat isulat? hmm.. college for me is something you should really put all your efforts to. hard? not yet..but it keeps me doing a lot of things. i miss my highschool friends, i hate it when i think of the days that i wasn't with them. scary din ung thought na after this, i would really have to face the real world. andaming iniisip, andaming ginagawa. pero i won't give up.. i've already given up a lot of times, but not this time. i'm serious about this, i have to be. i'm eighteen. my gosh..am i that old? and i need to change my attitude on stressing too much!! extremes kasi eh.. and m so moody nowadays.. why?! i don't know. but i really appreciate it that i only walk for me to be able to go to school. it is very convenient!! trust me.. no hassle! speaking of things to do, i still have to review for 3 subjects. itpc, theo and bot. plus i have to cut 5 articles for botany and right short responses for the article, make a speechabout froebel, read the second selection for eng 105 and research about our lessons. advance study.. wow, i'm so going to be a nerd!! haha no.. not really. i have to study about phist pa pla! tsk.. so i really have to concentrate on evrything i do!! so i could do it FAST!! haha.. but i would really love it if i could talk to to some of my friends. i really miss them. well, have to go. still need to attend mass..

haha.. free internet.. sulitin ang tuition fee at ang magandang library!

uaap na!! woohhoo!! go ej! haha.. cheer nyo c ej, wawa naman kundi, patay!!

waaah.. i took two days off. i haven't been studying coz i'm not feeling well!! fudge!! i want to cry! and the reason? go figure!! actually, i don't know why!! i'm very upset!! roar.. char, is that you?! haha.. ha.. aha!! i want to do something productive but i can't!! PLease God, help me.. please??

www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/fantasticfour/saveyourlife.htm

 

i'm so loving this song!!

for you.. haha

why so sad?! it seems so ironic that i have to deal with this alone. yes, i do have friends, but saying this to them would really make a big fuss out of this. i'm sick and tired of complaining, and yet, i can't do anything. last night, i was thinking of calling some friends..but i can't force myself to dial their numbers 'coz i know that if i say anything to them, it would just bother them and it would just make them feel worse. sila rin may problema..

i don't want to be selfish or anything. college is REALLY different and hard.. but this is reality. this is LIFE. no matter how hard it is, i'll still keep going.

 

i hope God could hear my prayers..

 

And i do know that He listens, I just have to wait for the time that He'll answer my prayers.

And ria, if you can read this, i'm missin' you so bad.

Artist: Omnisoul Lyrics
Song: Save Your Life Lyrics

Waiting

Haven’t you had enough of my brain
It’s on the table I’ve got no more to say
If I bore you get out of my way
This one’s for you
So cut me a break cause I can’t wait
I’m the same I was when we first met
And now I feel you’re pulling away
So just give me the word
And I’ll leave today

But if you want me to I’ll be the one for you
Maybe I can save your life
At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be
So just let me save your life

There’s a line formed you can’t see
I’ve been waiting you give nothing for free
But there’s a yearning it’s deep and calm
And time has burnt me

So cut me a break cause I can’t wait
I’m the same I was when we first met
And now I feel you’re pulling away
So just give me the word
And I’ll leave today
Yes I’ll leave today

But if you want me to I’ll be the one for you
Maybe I can save your life
At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be
So just let me save your life

Don’t you know me
I’m helpless without you
I watched you sleep so I could dream of you

If you want me to I’ll be the one for you
Maybe I…
At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be
So just let me save your life

*i'll save yours even if i can't save mine*

I am sorry for all the people that I have hurt. I don’t get to tell you all how special you are to me for I don’t know how to show you how much I value all of you. I thank God that He continually gives me friends. I am not worthy of the love and attention that you all are giving and have given me. But you never left me. Even if I don’t get to talk to you during the time when you are down, or to be there when something’s bothering you but when I was in my desperate moments, you were all there. I don’t deserve to have all the friends I have. The friends that are mostly left with my shortcomings, they are the ones that I can count on. I never expected them, you for that matter> to be there, but they are. And I thank you. For all the things that you’ve done. For the advices and for the prayers when I really needed them, they were all helpful. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for all of you. For the happy moments and laughter that we have shared, I thank you. You give light to my world and you made a great impact in my life. I may not be expressive of it, but I am really blessed to have people like you. Thank You and may God shower you with all His blessings for you are such a wonderful person. J